concerning Chapter 12..

This feels really weird to post, but...

...I was reading through "SPIKE" just now, something which I haven't done in ages. I thought I'd read some chapters to see if I could find some more mistakes to edit again.
Do you guys remember chapter 12? The one where Charles (or Chuck as he was nicknamed then) is speaking/thinking about his feelings for Spike? I haven't read that chapter in... I dunno, a couple of times since I posted it here on DA? Anyways, for some reason, that chapter just gave me a big punch in the stomach right now.. At least it felt like it, sorta. I had to just pause, stop reading, because I was all, "whoa sh*t, he's... he's .. dangerous, and insane..!" you know? And while I knew this already, since he's my character and I know all about him, this chapter just sort of had a big impact on me. Sort of like, sympathizing with him but being utterly terrified of him at the same time..
I hope this doesn't sound like boasting about my own writing or that it sounds self-centered in any way...
It just felt so weird to read that chapter again.

So, just curious...
how did you feel when you read that chapter? (If you've read it?) (here's a link to it, btw, if you feel like re-reading it: fav.me/d2kueyd )

And if you're a writer too, have you ever felt very emotional (any emotion, like; sad, happy, angry, whatever) over reading something you've written?

I know I sometimes get very absorbed in what I write and stuff, but I suppose that's just because I'm like a mother hen to my characters They feel so real to me, you know?
So if they're sad, I get sad because they're sad, and same when they're happy, or scared, etc...


I hope I'm not alone in feeling like this?